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Wednesday, 9 July 2008

here i am, blogging at work...

at the beginning of 2008, when i asked myself what season of growth this year would be, i felt God telling me that this year would be a season of breakthroughs in relationships, with friends and family. i didn't know what that meant, nor do i know it now, but a particular situation last night sparked my thoughts once again.

being busy with work, Snooze, crusade and church activities, there were many days recently that i went home late, like at 12mn. so last night, after Snooze practice, i reached home, to be scolded by my dad, who was still awake. i will not go into the details, but some of his words did hurt me. it didn't last long, but i spent a long time thinking about the whole thing before i eventually drifted off to sleep.

i know what kind of person my dad is. he definitely did not mean any harm, and i know he wants the best for me. he has showered blessings on me all my life, and i thank God for such a wonderful dad. the unfortunate thing is that even after all these years, i'm still afraid of him, to the extent that i would avoid him, and not talk to him much. i really hope that this will be the year that i will have a breakthrough in my relationship with my dad. i pray that i will have the courage to just sit down with my dad and talk things through. whether he accepts what i do or not, i will still choose to honour God and honour my dad. i hope that my dad and i will be able to understand each other more and more.

before last night, i thought to myself that my life is perfect now, that everything is in order, i have no worries about studies, work, ministry, relationships, finance etc. but i think God wants me to change my perspective of life, that to grow spiritually, i have to go through trials and tribulations. so this is why i did not talk back at my dad or cry myself to sleep last night, which i would have done a few years ago. i'm quite surprised at my reaction to this situation too, as i used to harbour a lot of hatred towards my dad.

living a God-led life is very comforting, because i am at peace no matter what is happening in my life. thank God for that!

giving thanks at 13:18 :)