updates from the workplace Wednesday, 28 May 2008
before i started my internship, i'd never dream of blogging during work, but here i am, blogging away on the company desktop haha...
anyway i got a call from Evon (FR staff) on Sunday night, she informed me that i'm chosen to be in the new band! so exciting! i think it's a sign of where God is leading me, or maybe just God's grace to grant me the desires of my heart. =p i've never dared to dream of playing in a band as a performance other than in church worship context, but after the experiences of playing in relatively big events like Metamorphosis camps and University Dedication Service, i feel that God is opening up the possibility of me serving Him in music ministry in a greater capacity, more than just playing for worship on Sundays. not that i treat playing in church worship as less important, but i never thought of anything more than that until recently.
a big issue for people serving in worship ministry is that because it's a "frontline" ministry, it's very easy for us to have our own agenda on why we do what we do. it is easy to fall into the trap of self-glorification, like "wow, don't i sound great?", "look at all those people looking at me", "let me impress the crowd with some solo rifts" etc. that is why we have to keep reminding ourselves and one another, we do all this not for ourselves, not for the people, but for Him. worship is not just on Sunday, but it's a lifestyle, and it requires daily surrender of our lives to God. we must acknowledge that we cannot do this by our own strength, but only by His.
i (had the audacity) plucked up the courage to ask my boss for 3 more days of leave for ST retreat in end June-early July, and my boss said ok! God is indeed good! as a comparison, my buddy Ho Wai (NUS Engine) has been working for about 5 months already, and he still has not taken 6 days of leave yet. i better do my job properly haha.
last night i joined the current mission team going to Khon Kaen for dinner and sharing, and i thought it was a wonderful time of fellowship and Q&A. of my team, only me and Robson were able to make it, the rest were unavailable. well i guess that was good also, as i cannot imagine a total of 26 people (14 current + 12 previous) having an orderly discussion haha. as i shared my experiences, i realised how much i miss Thailand, and how much the burden to reach out to the Thais bears in my heart.
becoming a full-time missionary in Thailand? that's another story for another time. back to work! =p
giving thanks at 12:56 :)
david chow en yuan